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January 14 ...S T A Y Y O U N G...firist c sory that i didn't copy this one 2 msn space on time.actually after the b-day 1 month nd 2 days.
another 12.
...S T A Y Y O U N G...
   just updated the age in my qq profile~! >6<'' again a longggg born of this blog.i thought that i shld write sth 4 the very special day 4 several days. coz it's been almost a year from the previous one. a lotta thin's has happened.maybe it's the most dramatic year 4 we all since our birth. most of people leave many words of that exam, that sayin' goodbye,the movin' 2 a new place. 4 me,there's nth...i became speechless in frount all of the changin's. i write sth b4 abt the b-day.bt i feel that's useless now. werid.as the suddenly comin' 18! actually,i sighed "MUST I FACE THE 18?!." on myspace few days ago, maybe i cannot face that really,even 2day~ my mom said 2 me she that she got a shock when she is 18,maybe it's in the gene~LOL i feel it's a little ridiculas when i set so many things 2 do at my 17.bt nth i did b4 2day. so that's the 17.my fav age.a just play 4 fun age,a never finishin' age. maybe i'm 2 awarenessly.wut differs from 2day & 2morrow? 2morrow i'm still the same.be the lazy one. this 18,i didn't find some representative songs as my 17. this 18,i can't use the desperated teenage any more as my 17. this 18,i'm not the b4 punk type as my 17. this 18,i celebrate outside myself. this 18,i'm changed ... ... still childish,still willfulness,still burnin'. all in all,we all stay young! HAYLEY IS 17 YEARS AGO. P.S. got lotta wishes from yesterday,it's sooooo nice of all u guys! sweet!nee...*kekeke* luvin' u buddies!!! thnx 4 my old buddies!thnx 4 the gifts u send 2 me!~nd the wishes from everywhere!
can't wait 2 go back 2 hang out with u alll!~~~ misssss u........ thnx 4 my roommates brought me the suprising b-day cake!i thought i won't hav it on my 18 b4!movin'~~~ thnx 4 new frds here give me those cute gifts! thnx that salman give me ur advice on b-day!nd thnx brandon u remember mine b-day every year nd send greetingds from LV!hav u got the new guitar? frds on ringo   frds on myspace chocolate&ice from ~AMY SWEET~!  !!!SUPA GR8!!!SHE MADE IT!~  nd wishes from all u gorgeous nd awesome gal!!! frds on hi5 thnx 4 u guys send me sooo many sweet words!(boss escaped from skul 2 send me e-mails~) stay young
oasis
one way out is all youre ever going to get
from those who hope
their minds dont ever let it touch you
cause theyll put words into your mind
so making you feel so ashamed
making you taking the blame
making you cold in the night
making you question your heart and your soul
and you think that its not quite right
hey, stay young and invincible
cause we know just what we are
and come what may, were unstopable
cause we know just what we are
yeah we know just what we are
yeah we know just what we are
feed your head with
all the things you need when youre hungry
and stay in bed and sleep all day as long as it is sunny
cause thayll put words into my mind
theyre making me feel so ashamed
theyre making me taking the blame
theyre making me cold in the night
theyre making me question my heart and my soul
and i think that it is not quite right
hey, stay young and invincible
cause we know just what we are
and come what may, were unstopable
cause we know just what we are
yeah we know just what we are
yeah we know just what we are
cmon
hey, stay young and invincible
cause we know just what we are
and come what may, were unstopable
cause we know just what we are
hey, stay young and invincible
cause we know just what we are
and come what may, my faiths unshakable
cause we know just what we are
cause we know just what we are
cause we know just what we are
cause we know just what we are
cause we know just what we are
we know just what we are
we know just what we are
we know just what we are
we know just what we are June 11 i'm back,i'm all free now~!~!~!OMG~! nd 4 noe,i shld be hapy nd relax... bye skul,bye exams~
after added... i used 2 wonder where i gonna be after these 3 months... but i never thought the answer would come sooo easy 2 reply! i shld stay one more year,the dreams u feel so close suddenly faded! u can' t see,u can't find them anywhere.3 months turn to 1 year,hoe funny? sometimes i thought the lord is only playin' a game with me,nd when i open my eyes,it's a nightmare...but it really is~ i've really dreamed about the life outside 4 sooo long,but it slipes when i get close 2 it...it's really harmful~ but...4 my dream, i don't wanna break them down,though they will come l8er~ i don't wanna miss the chance 2 get my dream. maybe one step could change all.so i choose 2 stay,choose 2 start again,choose 2 give myself another chance,choose 2 make a full 12-year' round! i knoe,when i'm completed,everything would be okay...when i'm readdy~ still belive in god,still needs god's love,still want miracles,maybe that's me! it's not far,it's just there,one year,not long...... drearms come true i do! keepin' tellin' myself thoses words these days of next year,i'm on my way 2 my place~
hope January 07 SOME CHAOS...AH HA~~~~~~ i haven't been here 4 a long time nd i haven't wrote any dairy 4 a long time. quite a while,huh? still hav nothin' 2 c,just... i'm all ****in' bored nd messy! maybe i feel i shld leave sth at the beginnin' of the year. though i didn't hav party 2 go!i didn't hav hollidays! i had 2 days' damn exams at the last 2 days of 2006 nd caught a bad cold! i'm always holdin' the beginnin',b-day,new term,new year...but i never get the end! OH JESUS!that's me?awesomeeeeee gal!always trap in troubles nd can't get out! i'm tryin' 2 b a nice gal 4 some days but i can't concentratin' on wut i am doin'! actually i'm still dreamin'~~~many people repuires me stop that but i dunno how! i can't believe wut is my life like now!weried? i acknowledge i can't find out how does the world go nd i don't wanna figure it out! i just want 2 hav me own style though even me dunno wut it's like but sudenlly found i hav soooo many things 2 deal with...incredible! i'm 17 now ,bradon is 24 now,karen is at home now,daila is in san francisco now,ali is havin' her holliday now,lollita is hangin' out now,decea is makin' muzik now...... nothin' changes 4 me!notin' changes in me! i always believes me that i am a good actress,no doubt! i could smile here and there,now and then! nobody could c into my heart nd read me! but i'm tired now nd do not want 2 hide from the evil society! 4 now,i'm just sittin' here with a nice look on my face but my heart is just out of the world! i'm livin' on my own nd belongs 2 nowhere~ i'm a freak nd anytime anywhere anybody could accept me no matter how hard i try! i just finished the gilmore girls,hopin' there's a james dean 4 me! keri noble is wisperin' in my ears about the little warm stories! i missed the vienna new year concert nd i'm wishin' i could be in the big apple time square countin' the last seconds 2 the 2007 with crazy crowds! i'm thinkin' there's a fairy or a angel,wutever could brings me good luck at the edge of my youth! maybe i just hate growin' old or anything about responsibility! maybe i'm lostin' in the pressure nd can't c my free life! i know it's meaningless nd it's a clutter!i just annel them if i could feel much better! maybe i shld hav a used life boxes nd do not throw it away but hide from me now!i may need them one day~ i know i shld't always complain,it shld be disgusted with!but i really can not find any reasons 2 stop! 2 let myself shut up! oh,could anyone tell me wut hell it is?y i hav sooo many damn words 2 c! much love from -x-GRANDMA HAYLEY-x- July 24 To Accept,To Adapt,To Attempt!!!this time ,i'm true a stud of high skul 3.
i really shld accept&adapt&attempt to this DAMN SHIT world!
feel stressed,confused,nd scary......
from this week on,i shld c goodbye 2 everything i likeeee
to movies,to TV,
to internet,to games,
to computer,to muzik,
to playin',to havin' fun,
even to rest......
hope i could get a nice score in the next year's final exams. hope i could go 2 shanghai 2 hav the univerSHITY, hope i could get my dreams, hope miracles could happen on me!!!
(em...i can't give up my e-pals~~~T_Ti luv ya all!!! i'll check the e-mails once a week,maybe lessssssssss)
oh,hav no time on it~ gotta study!BYE
God Bless Me 4ever July 02 Not sooo bad......the life isn't good at all,
but at least,it's not so bad......
though my mum ignores me, i know that she is still lovin' me, everybody cares me!
though my leg is ache,it shows that i'm still growin', 2 be tall tall TALL!
though i just hav 2-week's summer holiday,i can hav fun!
though the study is full of my life,i still hav my sun!!!
i could hav my first movie,someone wants me 2 be the heroine in her play!(haha,sb wanna be the director,but i'm the one who always wanna be the actor!now,here comes the challenge!)
life is just like that,borin', dark,threaten~~~
but i still could find my fav CDs,still could play the netgames 4 a while,still could eat wut i want,still could sing&dance 4 sometimes,still hav my cool stuff,still hav a lotta frenz,still hav foreign frenz 2 visit me,still hav people c i'm fashionable!~!~!(some people c i'm the most ROCK in my skul!HAPY~~~tryin' 2 be...)
is that the life in high skul 3?
would it last?
do not become worse,
hope it become better,LOL!!! (i'm a dreamer) June 23 strange life?messy life?playin' truant 4 me is as everyday's lifework,such as eatin',sleepin'...i don't think it's kewl,on the contrary,i know it's wrong,but i just feel fine!i wanna live 4 my own happiness~!~!~!
i found my skul is like a concentration camp more nd more~as the old sayin',the oppression breaks out where the resistance exsits!so,me&my frenz keep on tryin' 2 find ways out of skul.a hole,a wall nd any other ways~~~i promise that i'm good at jumpin' off the wall,man!dreamin' someday 2 be in the FBI......LOL
although the f**kin' exam is comin' 2 me,i don't know hoe 2 do!(maybe i just don't wanna do) although i know i shld study hard 4 my parents(not 4 me),i don't want 2! although i can get out of the skul,i can't get out of my heartdurance!!!
i'm still on my way searchin' 4 my own freedom,but i can't find it ! does it not exist,or just i can't find it? who can give me the answer~?~?~? WAITIN' 4 IT! June 09 my damn year,F**K!~! i still couldn't believe the fact that i'm in my last year of my high skul......
 a year when i shld c goodbye 2 my happy past,a year when i shld face the most difficult chanllenge in my life.i cant bear it!oh,wut a damn year!!!
 hoe i widh there is a SKIP button in my life,so i could skip wutever i hate.oh god,help me please~~~
today,sb is get away from the hell,but i fallin' in it......where is my heaven???  |
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